I had a bad dream. The world said I’m disposable. Enraged voices echoed, spewing about their right to congregate superseding my right to live. I walked through static darkness and heard money was more important than my well-being. I had a bad dream. Sickness grew in hulking mounds. Dark monsters reaching out, grabbing anyone nearby.… Continue reading Disposable
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What book are you fingering?: The language we feel obligated to use with blind people
My iPhone rested in my lap as I sat in my seat on the train. Like passengers surrounding me, I used my smart device to entertain myself. With an earbud positioned in my ear, I kept one ear available to track my children while the other read a book on Kindle. I enjoy reading audio… Continue reading What book are you fingering?: The language we feel obligated to use with blind people
Review of Firefly Lane by Kristin Hannah
Firefly Lane by Kristin Hannah is a 2008 book about a life-long friendship between two women, Kate and Tully. There are some vague spoilers in this review. Firefly Lane is what I call a “moms book club” book. It centers around two women and their relationship, and is a tear-jerker to boot. At its core,… Continue reading Review of Firefly Lane by Kristin Hannah
Diary of an Anorexic entry 2: Gaunt Memories
And a memory crashes over me. A face that still haunts me. At times, I still feel that pain, like a hunger gnawing inside me. An identity hard to break. It sticks with me. That girl is foreign and familiar at the same time. Sometimes, she’s detached from me, and other times, she’s a suit… Continue reading Diary of an Anorexic entry 2: Gaunt Memories
Diary of an Anorexic entry 1: 2020 Triggered my Eating Disorder
“Okay, order has been received,” Ross says. “Hmm,” I mumble as I swipe around on my phone. “Wait, you did coconut milk with my latte, right?” “Oh, um, was I supposed too?” “Yes, you know I always do coconut milk.” “Right, sorry, forgot.” “When is the last time I bought cow’s milk for home?” “I… Continue reading Diary of an Anorexic entry 1: 2020 Triggered my Eating Disorder
A Sickness
*** As I attempt to create new material, I’m simultaneously sifting through old stuff. I wrote this in 2016 during my second semester of my MFA; I was also pregnant with my second son. It’s not Pulitzer-winning writing here, but it’s interesting how much has happened and come to fruition. Despite the election of President… Continue reading A Sickness
Shit on Saramago: The Power Literature has on Reality
***This was my grad school craft paper. It’s not academic enough to be published in a journal or even literary mag, but I still think it’s worth sharing. It’s a bit long, but hope you enjoy. ***TW: Some examples of graphic sexual assault, and ablist depictions. Blindness in Literature:Shaping Blind Characters: Fully Realized vs. Stereotypical… Continue reading Shit on Saramago: The Power Literature has on Reality
Senseless: Eight years after Sandy Hook
The rocking chair envelops me as I feed my four-month-old son. He chugs the bottle, hands gripped on either side. His legs periodically kick out. I stroke his wild mane of hair. The TV chatters in the background. The woodsy scent of pine and sweet smell of sap waft over to us. Our Christmas tree… Continue reading Senseless: Eight years after Sandy Hook
Disabled people are not normal
My shout echoes throughout the house as I holler at my boys. Feet pound as my three-year-old and eight-year-old clamber towards the front door. “Come on, let’s go outside,” I say. We scurry around slipping on shoes and grabbing toys. The boys rush out the door. I grab my white cane before joining them. The… Continue reading Disabled people are not normal
I’m not your inspiration porn
The disability community erupted when Sia announced her upcoming film Music. Kate Hudson, Leslie Odom Jr. and Maggie Ziegler star in the film, which is about an autistic girl who goes to live with her sister. The film will not release until early 2021, and it’s Sia’s directorial depute. A trailer was released a couple… Continue reading I’m not your inspiration porn
Imperfection 